sisyphus
startled by the buzzing alarm
but not enough to get up
class in an hour
sleeps two more
rolling over, looking at the time
accepting the repeated defeat
groaning and stretching
everything out of place
hobble over to the dresser
down the pre sorted pharmacy
crawl to the bathroom to rid last nights dehydration
warm frozen bones under running water
pour a bowl of stale cereal and stare
too nauseous to eat
too hungry to not
distract with neuron numbing news
slide back into bed
unmade, unchanged
contemplate what to do with the day
class is already over
laundry begging to be folded
days old with grandma wrinkles
hair asking to be brushed
but the sparrows like their new home
the acid ache spreading through every vein
get up to grab the pills
candy coated and addictive
a worthless endeavor
three in the afternoon only four hours awake
drifting off to a neglected show
waking up unrested and confused
laptop and mind dead
trying to get up again
but slippery sockets don’t hold very tight
with shaky breathe and anticipated pain
joints find where they belong
finally time to wash off the weeks failure
water burning red snakes into gray purple skin
time loses meaning and body loses feeling
stiff fingers cant wash oil slicked hair
only leaving the numbing steam
when the ice cuts too deep
shivering into an unwashed towel
left dripping wet and hopeless
messy bed calling
empty stomach rumbling
pre packaged protein
to end another unsuccessful day
body craving sleep
mind needing distraction
heavy head finally getting rest only to be
startled by the buzzing alarm
